AM I IMPORTANT? KIND OF...NOT PARTICULARLY...NOT AT ALL

 

IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO LIFE HAVING THIS MIRROR IN THE ROOM IT BROUGHT THIS ENERGY I WASN’T AWARE OF...I WASN’T AWARE OF MY PRESENCE BEFORE

 

I FELT LIKE LAZARUS THIS MORNING HOWEVER SHORT LIVED

 

USUALLY WHEN YOU GIVE SOMETHING TO SOMEONE WHO NEEDS IT YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOUR ALTRUISM

 

THEY WERE EXACTLY THE SAME, SAME HEIGHT, SAME EVERYTHING. THEY WALKED STRAIGHT AND DIDN’T MAKE ANY GESTURE THAT THEY MIGHT HAVE BEEN AWARE OF THE OTHERS EXISTENCE 

 

LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM THAT I KILLED SOMEONE

 

‘SO’ IS A GREAT WAY OF STARTING A SENTENCE THAT YOU DON’T KNOW THE ENDING TO. SSSSS AND OOOOOO, TWO EXPECTANT LITTLE LETTERS

 

I STROKED A HEDGEHOG AND ALMOST WET MYSELF AT THE DOOR BEFORE I COULD UNLOCK IT

 

EVERYDAY I AM SUBJECT TO THIS FEELING THAT I AM RUNNING OUT OF TIME

 

I LIVE IN A WORLD THAT IS SO FAST WE HAVE EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF INFORMATION WE COULD EVER DREAM OF AT OUR FINGERTIPS. ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS PRESS A FEW BUTTONS AND THERE IT IS REVEALED TO YOU. SIFTED FROM THE PAGES OF A BOOK THE PERFECT SENTENCE BROUGHT RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES.

 

I THINK IT WEIRD, EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING SO FAST. THE INTERNET IS GETTING QUICKER, THE TRANSFER OF information IS GETTING FASTER...COULD THAT BE WHY I FEEL LIKE I AM RUNNING OUT OF TIME

 

THERE WAS SOMETHING SO PECULIAR ABOUT THAT MEETING. ABOUT MEETING HIM

 

THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH TIME TO DO ANYTHING I WANT TO DO

 

SOME WOULD SAY FATE, OTHERS WOULD SAY DESTINY

 

WE WERE GIVEN THIS POT WITH CUFFLINKS IN IT. A LITTLE TEDDY BEAR WEARING A TIARA AND SOMETHING ELSE MAYBE A DOG

 

I FEEL WEIRD. MY MIND RACES

LET ME READ YOUR HOROSCOPE: IT’S A COMPLICATED DAY GEMINI, YOU APPROACH THE WORLD LOGICALLY BY TODAY YOU’RE AT A LOSS OF WHAT TO DO WITH YOUR FEELINGS. TRUST YOUR INTUITION YOU SHOT YOURSELF IN THE FOOT AND NOW YOU’RE DEALING WITH THE CONSEQUENCES. 

 

THEY ARE COMING FROM FIVE DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS AND I CAN’T SEE ANY OF THEM IT MAKES IT ALL VERY DISCONCERTING I’D JUST LIKE A PIECE OF BIT AND QUIET. 

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SIMULATING EXPERIENCES IN MY HEAD THAT I CAN’T HAVE WITH YOU

 

AT TIMES I SAT THERE FEELING FEARFUL THAT I COULD HAVE HAD THAT EXPERIENCE WHEN I CHOSE FOR SOME REASON NOT TO

 

THEN I FELT SO HAPPY AND CONTENT ALL THE BEAUTIFUL EMOTIONS THAT WERE SO BOUNTIFUL AND PLENTY THEY COULDN’T BE STOPPED

 

FROM THE MOMENT I WOKE UP I FELT RESTLESS. ITS BIOLOGICAL MY BODY IS NOT SUPPORTING ME

 

I BUILT MYSELF A MAZE AND I FOUND THE CENTRE BUT IT TURNS OUT ITS NOT THE CENTRE AFTER ALL

 

HERE’S A FAT CAT (TSK TSK) HE’S NOT FRIENDLY

 

I’M EXPERIENCING FRESH AIR FOR THE FIRST TIME IN TEN HOURS

 

THERE’S A FUNGUS GROWING IN MY BRAIN

 

THE LAST THING I SAID WAS: SORRY IS WHAT YOU SAY TO SOMEONE WHEN YOU STAND ON THEIR FOOD NOT THEIR HEART. AND I’M REALLY PROUD OF THAT

 

EVERYTHING IS SO CIVILISED WHEN WE TALK

 

I NEED TO THINK MORE ABOUT LOVE

 

DO I FEEL UNDER PRESSURE

 

FIFTY PERCENT OF IT IS PURE BEAUTIFUL PEACEFUL BLISS CONTENTMENT SAFETY AND THE OTHER FIFTY PERCENT IS THAT PAIN. THAT DRAGGING ON YOUR SKIN, THAT ACHING AND YOU KNOW ITS THERE, BUT YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE WITH IT. THAT’S 

 

SOMETHING WAS OUT THERE WANTING ME TO HAVE THIS EXPERIENCE

THE PALE BLUE

 

THE DEEP BLUE

 

RISING FLYING RUSHING

 

I’M OUT OF MY MIND BUT IN MY SHELL, WHEREVER MY SHELL MIGHT BE

 

THERE IS A SHADOW IS DISGUISED AS ME

 

I USED ALL MY POWER TO SMOTE HIM INTO DUST AND THE DUST CLOUDED EVERYWHERE SO I EXHALED THE DUST AND I SET THEM ON FIRE I BURNT THE DUST TO ASHES. I SMOTE MY DAEMON

 

IT’S CHILLY OUTSIDE TONIGHT

 

I’VE REALLY AND TRULY COME TO THE REALISATION THAT ALL OF THESE EVENTS HAPPENED FOR A REASON IT HAS MADE ME VERY POWERFUL

 

POWER FULL AND ALIVE